ats meme: nine scenes
→ that wasn’t angel, that wasn’t angelus either… who was that?
We take what we can get, champ, and we do our best with it. I’ll be seeing you.
And if California slides into the ocean
Like the mystics and statistics say it will
I predict this motel will be standing until I pay my bill
What I like about “Why We Fight” is that it recontextualizes my favorite Angel episode, “Are You Now or Have You Ever Been.” “Are You Now” is about Angel waking up enough to recognize and react to someone else’s pain despite his own, even though he fails, in the main action, to save anyone. I have always, always loved that episode because it’s Angel in a nutshell, but “Why We Fight” underscores it.
“Why We Fight” is about Angel getting roped into a fight he doesn’t care about and fucking things up and traumatizing a bunch of people and hating himself even more for it, and of course Lawson is all about Connor, and the various ways Angel ruined him (“Sixty years of blood drying in my throat like ashes. So what do you think? Is it me, chief, or does everyone you sired feel this way?”), but the episode takes place nine years before “Are You Now.” Which means even after everything that happened with Lawson - the kid who just wanted to save his crew, the one Angel had to turn against his will - Angel still wanted to help Judy. He still thought he could. Nothing we do matters; all that matters is what we do.
There are shows that are better on the whole than A:tS, for a lot of reasons, and The Wire supplanted it as my favorite show the second time I watched it all the way through, but I don’t love any character on any show ever as much as I love Angel.